I adore this picture of Jude. Recently, he and I went walking around Hyde Park neighborhood one early Saturday morning. It’s crazy how quiet this city is during an early weekend morning. The weeks are chaos in our household these days. That chaos has finally become our new normal, and we have all finally adjusted to the new routines. Since Jude was born, neither Chase or I had weekends off. We were both extremely focused on our careers and making a life for our child with two parents in the creative professional world. 3 months ago we made some changes that were difficult for me at first, but now more than ever I see how good these changes really were.
Today I got these sweet sweet film portraits back of Jude, and all I could feel in my heart was a burst of pride, I have the most amazing and beautiful son. Today I also received the call from the Austin independent school district letting me know that Jude’s evaluations has been completed. The speech pathologist and the diagnostic director called to let me know that Jude has been accepted into the school district for special needs. The speech pathologist told me that Jude has “absent of spoken language.” I have learned quickly that everything has a specific label. AHG! I still feel that I have no clue what all it means sometimes, but I do know I’m trying like hell to understand and keep up, and I will eventually get there knowing that I will have my days that are harder than others.
It has has been 6 months of processing, so much change, crazy up and down emotions, and so much time dedicated to autism research and evaluations. Today I feel stronger and know that I’m the best mother for Jude. My heart is full knowing that I have such a gifted and special boy in my life. He teaches us something new every single day. I plan to share my experiences and emotions being a mother to a child with autism here in my blog often, hoping that I will get to connect to other parents who have similar lives or just share our story. I’m an honest and open book. All I truly want is for others to learn and open their eyes and heart to Autism. It’s a challenging gift and journey we are on.
Film: Portra 400
Developed & Scanned by The Find Lab.